Possession

I don’t want to fall
But I don’t want you to catch me
I don’t want to be here
But I don’t to leave

I don’t want to fail
But I can’t stand success
I don’t want to see
But I can never be blind

In the darkness the choice is indifferent
In the light the choice is too much

I don’t ever want to grow up
But I can’t stay here forever
I don’t ever want to feel
But I’m sick of the numbness

I don’t want to live
But I shall never die

So I guess I’ll just scream:

“The beauty of having is nothing.”